get to think about it.. hmm.. being a photographer myself.. i dont think i've ever seriously framed a picture.. i've clicked and prolly have taken thousands of moments and perhaps most of them framed up in my mind.. but i've yet to frame a picture that i actually wanted to do so for the longest longest time ever!

but recently i've set my mind that i wanted to do so.. and the 1st thing that i really wanted to framed up.. is my own family portrait.. my parents, my brother.. and closest cousins and uncles that lived around me.. they have been a lot to me.. despite a lot that has been through.. there are a lot of instances that probably made harsh choices to say something or to make something happen in this family of ours.. but whatever we see in the end still comes back to one thing.. being close to each other.. each stand that i made before this is for a reason.. and the reason is to let me fall.. because i want to pick myself up again.. what it's to life if we dont fall right?

but recent fall came upon most probably my worst chinese new year that i have to go through this year..
2010.. i still remember that mango tree back in the old house..
where i used to be stung by bees and bitten by ants.. haha.. hyperactive is the only word that can describe me..
it's where i learned to cycle on a bike on two wheels too! and the 1st time i held up a yoyo standing on the sofa because i was that small! haha but i managed to pull it up! =) the moment of learning curve was epic.. especially the bike scene where i remember to cycle from 4 wheels to 3 wheels within a compound of less than 40metres. and finally.. i remember when i got to 2 wheels.. with that puny red little bike of mine.. i graduate and gotten the license of learning how to cycle with 2 wheels..
i can see joy not only from me.. but my relatives.. and my family too..
im the eldest child and the 1st one from my immediate family.. pretty much pampered a lot last time.. but grew to quite a bit now.. quite a rough ride that i decided to take myself here as well.. i remember that 1st photo of me having my 1st BIG number 1 birthday cake! and that unforgettable photo with granny.. that until now.. after so many years.. she hasnt change much.. and the coolest thing of all.. she still riding her motorcycle! hah! take that! =)

but recently..
we just found out she is actually suffering from lung cancer..
sigh..

"Dear lord, today i stand by here.. as i kneel down on my knees.. praying to you.. that you'll shine hope for my grandma as everybody here loves her as much as you love her.. i pray for her health to improve as i really do love her.. i pray here for you dear lord to accept her as she have just accepted you as her saviour and dear lord.. that i entrust with good faith and leaving her to your good hands.. amen.."